Chu Chu, we miss you!

Its one whole year already. How times flies. Like I said, new year will never be the same again. Although I had plenty of time, I did not wrote much here. I tidied up Chu Chu's place on this anniversary on 4th Jan 2009. I starts to see some resemblances with Fion. Especially when Fion make her face very untidy with hair running around that day. They almost looked alike, other then the size itself. Chu Chu was much smaller though.

I know what is gone is gone. I choose this day to watch the movie "10 promises I made to my Dog" as a remembrance to Chu Chu. It was sad, but I know this means I still remember Chu Chu deeply inside. I will always remember those great time we had and how we played together. I will also treasure what I have now more.

Chu Chu, I really miss you.

All About My Dog Marimo

Chuchu and Chew Stick

Here is another video of my dearest Chuchu when she was very youngand we are playing with her on with a chewy stick...

Flowers for ChuChu

I visited her today again... Although its only a short while. Its still really hard for me. J seems better. Wini seems to go into state of denial by playing ball or maybe she totally did not understand. But when I asked her if she miss ChuChu, she turn back and look at me...

Anyway, we bought flower for her. I really hope she will love it.

ChuChu's Photo

I tried to spend sometime this morning to arrange her photo up... I wanted to put one with her urn. Yes, she is back with us again. The only difference is she wont bark, lick or play pity anymore...

I was saying the photos. Yes, its hard. I thought I was ready. But it hurts so much. I can only manage to print out a few then I had to stop... Breaking down. Especially when I saw all her happy baby photos and some of the ones which I took just last week. It was only a few days before, yet now those are the last photos I took of her. After she past away, I did not manage to pull myself together to take anymore of her as she lay on the bed with the blanket I put on her...

I tried talking to so many people about this. It feels better, but whenever I started to retell the story, I kinda lost it there... It did get a bit easier with each attempt though. I really want to thank my friends who listen and gave me advices especially people like Shohoku, Yun, Ana and others. I think with their help, I will get better soon.

I went to buy some things for her, a bowl to put her favorites treats etc, a photo frame to put her picture, candles holder to use when she comes back on the 7th days this friday... I really had hoped I had spend more on her... I realized how stingy I was to her... And that really make me feel so guilty and sad. In fact, I remember I really hated her when she bite my laptop charger... I hit her... I really wondered if she will ever forgive me for that. I truly regreted that so much. Why I had to do that... For all you know she was very hurt then... I still remember I hugged so hard after that cos I realized what a terrible thing I did. Well, if she did not forgive me, I will just have to take this to my grave and ask for her forgiveness when I see her again.

I still remember I had this tube of chocolate vitamins for her. We got it when we got her and I remember feeding her at the bus stop then. We were so happy then. She licking the paste and I looked at her. After a while we felt she didn't need that anymore and its making her fat actually. Now I still remember its in the storeroom. She never even finished it. Its .. Sorry...

Ya, its really sad to see some of the things she did not used. Some of her clothes we bought for this new year and other toys. I remember I bought 3 sets of them. One for each of them. She had a scarf, many pretty clothes, even a Kimono. She will look like my little princess I thought. Yet, I never even got a chance to see her wear it. I did not put it on her cos she actually did not love clothes much. I thought I wanted to have her o her most comfy things she wanted. Now all these we packed it up because well many reasons. To come think of this. I feel I rather not celebrate CNY anymore cos I am really not in the mood. Sorry... I had to take a break and come back...

Oh, Wini and Bobi seems ok I guess. Wini search for Chuchu here and there, but she has fun things to play with like balls etc. Bobi is also doing his part to try and play with Wini. I guess among all, Wini is the one will is worse cos Chuchu is with her almost every minute... Maybe she doesn't understand, but if she does, she is doing a hell of a job hiding it. I really wanted to spend more time with them now. So its time to be strong and not cause them to be sad. I think inside, I will still mourn. But when facing them, I have to put on the smile and play with them.

Ok, tomorrow is Monday again. I had lots of work this week. But its good and bad. Good in the way I can concentrate and do something. Bad cos I cant spend more time with them. Well, until I feel I am ok to blog again, do enjoy these few songs I loved (and now managed to understand deeper and feel deeper) from X-Japan.

Bobi is so sleepy

An attempt to sign the Bobi Song while he is trying to sleep is really a very funny thing to do... :) I laugh until drop on floor.

Dog Farm

There was a dog farm being complained recently in the news. Its about a sick dog which sadly will not live to adulthood due to a sickness. The owner tried to contact the farm, but the farm is just pushing it. Anyway, this wont be the first for Ericsson Pet Farm.

Here is another PDF article, but the picture and details can be pretty gross, please do not read it while you are having your meal :
http://habitatnews.nus.edu.sg/pdf/abuseddogs-pasirris-st17dec2004.pdf

In any case, I decide it would be fair for myself to see it. I was there. And one farm to another, I must say getting worse and worse. I manage to walk in (yes, there is no security) to the farm. And into some area... And god, I saw a man (maybe trainer) shouting his lungs out at a dog (probably eating shit or something). Well, that may be training. Then there was this (breeding) area fenced of 4m x 4m. Guess how many Shih Tzu was housed inside this area? About 40, I would say, not less definitely. I was shocked and before I can do anything (take photo), I was asked to leave this area by someone there.

I visited the selling area, where there is fan blowing at the dogs etc, but that image of the poor Shih Tzu cram in that area. That is something I think I will carry forever in my mind.

Someone told me, its a farm. What do I expect? Perhaps so, but I can never imagine my Bobi and Wini coming from these places. I think I had enough of pet farm for a long time. I did not know what to say anymore. Boycott them? Don't buy from Pet Farm? Its all pointless. I guess everywhere is the same.

薔薔 ~ Ella

Bobi play tricks

My favorite is still Bobi who had learned some cool tricks. Unfortuntely I did not manage to capture all of it.

Wini wants you!

After seeing how Chuchu reacts in the playpen, lets take a look how Wini reacted when she was younger then.

Vacuum <> Dryer

I stand corrected. Just realised the past 2 post I say vacuum, but in fact, that the hair dryer... and its a damn good one which can blow for a long time. (Don't think of dirty thoughts).

Anyway, enjoy these video for now. When I have more I will post them up.

Wini love biscuit

Wini simply love all sort of food. Here is a footage of her taking a biscuit.

Bobi and vacuum

And this is how Bobi react to the vacuum.

Wini and Vacuum

We all need to clean and dry the dogs after they bath, but they simply just hates the vacuum right?

Wini and Greenie

She can be very persistant, especially if you have what she wants on your hand. See how she practically take it off my hand here.

ChuChu Wants You!

Seriously, if you see ChuChu, will you help her out?

Underdog

This is a remake of the old classic. I hope its going to be good. You can also catch the trailer at :

http://disney.com/underdog